When the person you need to need you, doesn't. When you are too afraid to find love in your heart, so you're just cold. When you're too cold to accept comfort from other people, so you build a wall around yourself, and push them away. When you turn to food for comfort, but soon becomes your worst enemy. When standing in front of people, you feel like they're all judging you on how you look because how you look on the outside is not always how you feel on the inside. When it's too uncomfortable for you people to look into your eyes, just incase they might see your demons and find out who- what you really are. When you're afraid of change, because even though it may be better, you're afraid of the unknown. When you can't cry in public, because it makes you feel weak. How it takes you to get drunk to let all your emotions out. When you feel like you can't trust anyone, because they're judging you. When everytime you believed in yourself, you managed to fail. When you're problems don't even compare to others, which makes you feel guilty. How you can't stop talking, because if you stop, your thoughts will eat you alive.
People have always wondered why I talk a lot, now they know why.
Of course I have times when I'm happy and content.
When you find a song that makes you feel like you're floating. When you go for a walk in the summertime, and the air clears your head. When you think of a fond memory, and can't stop smiling. When you get a compliment, and genuinely believe it for once. When you do a good deed for someone who needed it, and you feel fulfilled. When you find that moment of peace with your demons. When you realise that you've made it through the storm and are still going strong. Watching a David Attenborough documentary, because there's so much more to the world than what you see in your everyday life. When you've done something you never thought you could, and you feel accomplished.
But everyone should know that it's okay to be sad from time to time, you can't expect to be happy all the time. I get sad, but at the end of the day, I just want to be happy.
