Wanderlust

I can honestly admit that I'm feeling very wanderlusty at the moment. 

As an Irish teenager, I have this huge exam called the Leaving Certificate to do in June. It lasts for three weeks and I, as well as many thousand Sixth Year students in Ireland, have to do this. It consists of many subjects but not everybody does all of them, only about seven subjects each approx. 

It is now edging closer and closer to the 4th of June (the day they begin or "D-Day" as I like to call it)

and I'm becoming more and more nervous and feeling very under-prepared but also excited because when that's finished, SUMMER!! Then after that, hopefully, COLLEGE!!

But, anyway, back to the topic of wanderlust! Basically, I'm fed up of being in classrooms all day everyday wearing an itchy uniform that's super hot in the summer and I just want to get out in the world! When I procrastinate, (which I told you all not to do, if you read my last blog post because it is bad and it gets nothing productive done) I find myself on YouTube the majority of the time. One of my favourite YouTubers is Louis Cole (https://www.youtube.com/user/FunForLouis) and basically, he does daily vlogs of his life whilst he travels around the world and does crazy exciting stuff and meets loads of new people and makes me very jealous of his life. He is a super nice guy, totally chilled about everything and just goes where life takes him. By the way, I suggest you check him out!

Unfortunately, in a classroom situation, I can't do that. I have to go wherever my timetable takes me. Which sucks, frankly. 

Like, there's just SO MUCH of the world and I want to see it all! I don't want to be a stereotypical teenager or young person that does their Leaving Cert, goes to college, finds a job, moves out, marries, has a family etc etc.

I want to get my exams out of the way (and hopefully do well of course), go to college (eh hello, they're supposed to be the best years ever and at least I'd have a degree to fall back on if life fails on me) and then TRAVEL! And THEN, maybe do all of the other things.

Life isn't slowing down and probably, before I know it, I'll be in my late 20's and have the "oh it's too late for me to do anything now, I'm almost 30" attitude.

Last year, I had the "I hate everybody" attitude. This year, I have the "I want to do everything right now!!" attitude. Very optimistic; some that know me may disagree because of my day-to-day attitude in school, but in all seriousness, sometimes the weather outside is beautiful and I'm stuck in Maths trying to make sense of Integration or in French class not speaking French and I just want to go outside because sunlight makes me very happy!

Another person who is a huge inspiration in my life that has given me the urge to travel the world is none other than the one, the only, the fabulous, Sir David Attenborough! I don't think there's a place on Earth he hasn't been! He's been all over Africa, in the Galapagos, in the Arctic, the Coral Reef, lounging with Mountain Gorillas, heck, he's even been in Ireland! (and that's saying something) Judging from his docummentaries that I've watched growing up as a child, and still watch to this day, the natural world is an astonishing place and it should be explored, not destroyed by towns and cities. I want to go on a Safari or go trekking up Mount Kilimanjaro (well as far as I can anyway) and just do stuff that other people were too afraid to do or doubted themselves too much to do.

Don't doubt, just do.

Hahahah here's David being cute. Oh David..

So yeah, this wanderlusty thirst will not be quenched for another while, a small while yet anyway. But it's still there, driving me forward and keeping me motivated for what's to come. Obviously I don't have much planned yet, but I have a vague idea of places that I want to go to but how I'm going to get there and with what financing is going to be a problem, but time will tell.

Procrastinating

Okay, I think we can all agree that procrastinating is bad. I have an english essay to write, but instead, I'm blogging about procrastinating. That's procrastination right there!! 

I find that procrastination and motivation are in constant battle with each other. When one wins, the other one loses and visa versa. Oftentimes, you find motivation and then as soon as you begin to use this motivation, you stop whatever you're doing, even if it's only halfway finished, and then procrastinate finishing the rest. It's a vicious cycle, really. 

"Procrastination is the thief of time"

If you find something you love doing, then you won't have to procrastinate about reaching a goal, and you'll be motivated instead. 

Trust me, I've basically let procrastination take over my life. It soon turns into general laziness. (I've spent the majority of the weekend in my pyjama's, I should know) In my defence though, english essays are horrible things that should not be done during the week of official Leaving Cert Oral Exams, in my opinion. Plus, they're not even fun so it definitely wouldn't be one of the first things I'd do on a rainy day. 

And as a result of procrastinating doing this essay, I've started a chain reaction of procrastinating studying French for my French Oral Exam this week that I feel super under-prepared for. Super. 

When you procrastinate, all the things you have put off doing soon build up until you have this big mountain of things to do and have no idea where to start! Kind of like me and cleaning my room. It's a lost cause at this point because I've put off cleaning it for so long. And then you get stressed and worked up and then you feel awful and under pressure and that is certainly not fun. There is more enjoyment found in an english essay than there is with having stress breakdown's. And that's saying a lot.

So just some advice:

1~ Don't procrastinate

Yeah, that's about it. 

Happiness

What is your definition of happiness?

How do you even define an emotion? 

I'm not able to define happiness, I only know what it feels like. 

It's like trying to describe a colour to a blind person, or describe a sound to a deaf person.

Or even lick your elbow.

Extremely difficult.

I think happiness is just when you feel like you're floating and there's something in your brain that's pulling the sides of your mouth into a smile and there's nothing on your shoulders and everything feels right, everything feels good and infinite.  

(By the way, 'The Pursuit of Happiness' is such a nice film, I totally recommend it)