Of The Earth

The moment you realise that your bones are made of the same dust as the planets,

your lungs are breathing the same air as the migrating butterflies,

and your blood is pumping because of the love and care of thousands

is when you realise that you are not as broken as you think you are.

You are full of the world.

My Mind

Ever have those days where you just feel sad, but at that moment you don't know why? And you're silent, trying to think of reasons why you're sad. But can't. Then, overthinking kicks in, and you begin to dwell on your thoughts and suddenly, you have numerous reasons why you're not contently happy. 

When the person you need to need you, doesn't. When you are too afraid to find love in your heart, so you're just cold. When you're too cold to accept comfort from other people, so you build a wall around yourself, and push them away. When you turn to food for comfort, but soon becomes your worst enemy. When standing in front of people, you feel like they're all judging you on how you look because how you look on the outside is not always how you feel on the inside. When it's too uncomfortable for you people to look into your eyes, just incase they might see your demons and find out who- what you really are. When you're afraid of change, because even though it may be better, you're afraid of the unknown. When you can't cry in public, because it makes you feel weak. How it takes you to get drunk to let all your emotions out. When you feel like you can't trust anyone, because they're judging you. When everytime you believed in yourself, you managed to fail. When you're problems don't even compare to others, which makes you feel guilty. How you can't stop talking, because if you stop, your thoughts will eat you alive. 

People have always wondered why I talk a lot, now they know why. 

Of course I have times when I'm happy and content. 

When you find a song that makes you feel like you're floating. When you go for a walk in the summertime, and the air clears your head. When you think of a fond memory, and can't stop smiling. When you get a compliment, and genuinely believe it for once. When you do a good deed for someone who needed it, and you feel fulfilled. When you find that moment of peace with your demons. When you realise that you've made it through the storm and are still going strong. Watching a David Attenborough documentary, because there's so much more to the world than what you see in your everyday life. When you've done something you never thought you could, and you feel accomplished. 

But everyone should know that it's okay to be sad from time to time, you can't expect to be happy all the time. I get sad, but at the end of the day, I just want to be happy. 

Dublin's Fair City

Today I took the liberty of going up to Dublin for the Trinity College Open Day. I hadn't been to an Open Day before this one so I was curious to see what they were like so when I given the opportunity, I decided I'd go! 

I don't know what it was about the place, maybe it was because I had no comparisons from other Open Days, but I loved the place! It was so big and beautiful! I'd never been in there, I've only ever seen it from the outside so I was so happy that I was finally there! 

(The Death Star) 

We (my friends and I) went to a few talks about different courses that we were interested in and talked to some of the stands. The talks actually really helped becausr it's one thing reading it from a prospectus but it's another thing completely having a 30 minute lecture on the course. It actually gave you a really collegey feel to it as well! 

Whilst waiting before our first Science Overview talk, my friend and I walked around to a few stands; Zoology, Geology, Physiology included. Well, we didn't really plan on going to the Geology stand, but one of the people working on that stand came up to me and asked me if I wanted to see a fossilised Dinosaur egg, and I said yes. Obviously I'd say yes, it's a Dinosaur egg!! Then he showed me a diamond, then a really boring flat stone. Geology didn't interest me at all, it's safe to day. We headed down to the Zoology stand then, and there were snakes and spiders and all in glass container things. I touched the skin of a tarantula that it had shed (it felt like velvet which made me shiver) and I also touched a snake! It's not slimey at all, it's actually really smooth!

After all our talks and college-related activities, we went to get something to eat. Now. Grafton Street was packed, and I mean packed! It took us ages to try to find someplace to eat! We finally found this place called The Corner. It was a really nice restaurant type place where you basically Build-A-Burger. You were given a sheet of options on what you could have one your burger and you ticked which ever ones you wanted! I found it extremely difficult so I just ordered the Unique Veggie (I'm a Vegetarian) with Sweet Potato Fries. It was gorgeous! Definitely the nicest burger I've ever eaten. 

Like I had said, Grafton Street was full of people, and also full of entertainment! There was so many things going on at the one time; dancing, singing, busking (incl. Keywest!!), caroling and loads more! That's why I love Dublin, there's always something happening! 

(These guys creep me out. They sit or stand in place like statues! They will literally not move a muscle) 

We found that we were about an hour early for our bus so we decided to do a mini sight seeing tour around Merrion Square.

(Merrion Square Park: No Fun Allowed)

We went up and down different streets, say different buildings including the house where Oscar Wilde lived, the house that W.B Yeats worked in and The Dáil. My friend and I recited "Had I The Heavens Embroidered Cloths" outside W.B Yeats' former workplace. It was quite emotional to be honest, I felt quite privileged to have learned his poetry and be near where he was going about his daily business many many years ago. I think what made it special was that all I could think of was that he was there, walking the same path that I was walking. Another reason why I love Dublin, it has so much history and character about it! Michael Collins, Eamon DeValera, Pádraig Pearse.. I can't help but get a little emotional when I'm in Dublin, I also find though that I get even more patriotic. 

(The sign outside W.B Yeats' former workplace) 

((Please excuse the terrible image quality, it was dark and my iPod camera wouldn't be the best)) 

I love Dublin City. Hopefully if all goes well in my Leaving Cert, and if I get the points that I want, I may be fortunate enough to live up here. 

Here's just a few photos that I took throughout the day: 

(Bank Of Ireland)

(A Fancy Hotel [I can't remember its name])

(A cute little Christmas-lit pub)

(Oscar Wilde's former residence) 

(A hilarious sign we saw, 3 days too late though DAMMIT) 

Q&A

"Through a chink too wide, there comes in no wonder"

- Patrick Kavanagh

Choosing to study Religion for my Leaving Certificate was one of the best decisions I've ever made in life. It has eased my eyes open to the world and made me realise that there is more than just what we are told to believe as children. 

What I really liked learning about Philosophers such as Socrates, Plato, Aristotle etc., was that what I had learned  from their questions and answers to the meaning of life had given me enough of what I needed to form my own questions and form my own answers. 

Life is not just x,y,z. It's not just black and white. There are questions we would like answered but some of these questions cannot be answered. 

According to my religion teacher, he believes that us human beings like things to be definite. Unfortunately for us, life is full of mystery and uncertainty. Just because something is definite for you, may not be definite for someone else, e.g one's faith.  

As frustrating as it may be not being able to find definite answers, we form our own. If given definite answers, there would be no wonder and life would not be as wonderful as it is. (I'm not saying that life isn't a bitch sometimes, it is, but nonetheless) 

Life is there for living, so just live. Find your own answers to your own questions along the way, nobody is going to tell you that you're wrong. Just like nobody is going to tell you the answers. 

The Ash Tree

Does anybody remember the tree in Pocahontas? Mother Willow? Sometimes, I want a "Mother Willow" for myself, an actual tree like Pocahontas did, to help me with life problems and stuff. 

Hey, some girls want a Fairy Godmother, I want a tree. So what?

We had an Ash tree in our garden for years when I was a child. It was huge! In fact, I was named after it. True Story. I always wanted to climb it when I was younger. And when it was really warm and sunny, I would just sit under it eating an ice cream. It was right beside the road so for safety, a few branches had to be taken off it, which made it a bit smaller, but none the less, the same tree. 

After a few years, it had to be cut down completely. I reckon I was about 8 or 9, I think? I cried my eyes out watching it being cut down, and to this day, I don't even know why. I was inconsolable. 

Maybe I had some kind of secret bond with that tree, seeing as I was named after it and all. Maybe that tree was my Mother Willow.

Easpa Saoirse

This picture speaks to me so much but I'm not able to put most of the reasons into words because they only make sense in my head and not out loud, get me?

It saddens me though because that animal is clearly a wild animal, and it's behind glass, in captivity. Its paw against the glass is kind of like a cry for help really, it's trying to reach out some way or another but it can't because the glass is in the way. 

I don't see why animals get put in captivity. I mean, they have as much right to the Earth as us humans do. 

It just doesn't make sense.

Make It Happen

Everybody has a dream in life, absolutely everybody.

Well WHAT THE HELL are you doing just sitting around for, you have to MAKE IT HAPPEN! Most things are not going to come to you in a shiny box with a ribbon on it. 

It's going to take hard work and dedication to get what you want, but if you want it bad enough you'll work for it, you'll for it, you'll earn it, and you'll get it! Don't let anyone stand in the way of that, not even your inner demons (lets face it, we all have them too) 

So get out there and do something that's going to make you happy OK 

Bucket List

> Bungee Jump

> Scuba Dive
> Go On A Safari
> Hot Air Balloon Ride

> Volunteer In A Third World Country
> Work With Wild Animals
> Run A Marathon
> Route 66
> Ride An Elephant















> Jungle Trekking
> Hawaii
> Swim With Dolphins
> See The Seven Wonders Of The World
> See The Northern Lights

> See Kings Of Leon in Concert ~ 4/Jul/2014, Marlay Park
> Give Blood
> Swing Off A Rope Into A Lake
> Become A Disney Princess
> Africa
> Galapagos

to be continued..

"OCD"

Who Am I?

Who am I? 

It's a question I constantly ask myself. And the answer I always find is "I don't know."

But the truth is, I don't think anyone truly knows who they are just yet. 

Everything changes, and so do people. You can't define yourself even when life can't be defined. Nothing is definite. 

"Sometimes, you find yourself in the middle of nowhere and sometimes, in the middle of nowhere, you find yourself."

I've been in the same place for 17 years now, and I think 17 years is too long for the same place, same people. I want to get out of here, explore the earth and my mind. I want to experience new foods and new faces, new people and new places. I want to go on random voyages and find myself somewhere I've never been before. And hopefully, there, I'll find myself.